Dark Thoughts

I hate this isolation
It is driving me to a panic.
Isolation leads to lonliness and
Lonliness is a spectre that haunts the unforunate few.

Isolation is hard to break.
Loniliness is no easier.
I cannot break it,
Even though I try.

It is frustrating,
But,
It must be overcome.

Alone...

The battle must be fought alone,
And once the battle is won I will not be alone.

It is technique. Technique that must be learned, but
Cannot be taught;
But it is not technique, it is...

I wish I knew.
I don't know
And it is frustrating.
Someone please rescue me.
I AM GOING UNDER!

I am on the border of isolation and lonliness.

Don't let me be swept into that blackness.
Someone...
        Please
                Save
                        Me...

The cats are crawling
And I am scared
The pendulum is ticking
And I am crying

I look around and see only darkness
Where are you?
I am suddenly lost
You where here only just then
I feel your fingers slipping
Please don't fall

Why am I suddenly blind
Why have you suddenly tripped
Who swept you off your feet?
Who bludgeoned you to the ground?

I don't understand - I can't see the past?
I think I made mistakes even if I didn't
But I was always right - even when I wasn't
I can't remember what - I can't remember why?

Why didn't
Couldn't
I?

Should've!

Should've you!

I said.

Yes!

God but bad
Good but bad
Good but worse

I don't need it!
You I need!
I hope!
For you I hope!

Can be

Please!

Look
Look
Look

Open and see
Risk and Run
Be caught and Love
You, I do!