Thursday, November 06, 2003
Girlz
Well, I managed to get myself into a bit of trouble.
Nuff said really.
It's been really quite strange. I'm buying a house with my best mate, and we're moving in together to keep each other on the straight and narrow with respect to the fairer sex, and we both go and get ourselves semi-involved with girlz.
Now it's not all bad, because the girls in question are actually quite nice, but with our combined experiences with women the whole concept of having girlfriends again is, quite frankly, pretty damn scarey.
I'm not really sure what makes the whole thing so frightening. Perhaps it's because I've grown accustomed to my own company over the last 5 years, as my independence and inner strength has grown. Maybe it's the bitter memories of the final year of my last relationship. Perhaps I'm more concerned that my potential belle won't have the same determination for personal growth as what I've developed, and I fear that she may hinder my growth.
All fairly valid reasons, but is it reason enough to forego the potential happiness of myself?
I'm sure time will tell, and frankly I'm not overly concerned about it. Life will go on regardless, just the direction will vary slightly. My confidence has been steadily building and I'm equally happy being alone and with others.
Nuff said really.
It's been really quite strange. I'm buying a house with my best mate, and we're moving in together to keep each other on the straight and narrow with respect to the fairer sex, and we both go and get ourselves semi-involved with girlz.
Now it's not all bad, because the girls in question are actually quite nice, but with our combined experiences with women the whole concept of having girlfriends again is, quite frankly, pretty damn scarey.
I'm not really sure what makes the whole thing so frightening. Perhaps it's because I've grown accustomed to my own company over the last 5 years, as my independence and inner strength has grown. Maybe it's the bitter memories of the final year of my last relationship. Perhaps I'm more concerned that my potential belle won't have the same determination for personal growth as what I've developed, and I fear that she may hinder my growth.
All fairly valid reasons, but is it reason enough to forego the potential happiness of myself?
I'm sure time will tell, and frankly I'm not overly concerned about it. Life will go on regardless, just the direction will vary slightly. My confidence has been steadily building and I'm equally happy being alone and with others.
