Thursday, June 17, 2004
Counting Down - Getting Nervous
Well there's a little over 48 hours until I meet Jodie, face to face, for the first time. The feelings that I'm having are impossible to describe. A complex mixture of intrigue, enthusiasm, fear and longing.
It's like being in a state of perpeptual freefall, with my stomach never really catching up with the rest of me.
Work has been busy with file system re-organization, web-site design and Drupal research for our online content management.
In many ways, this has been a good thing because it distracts my mind a little from thoughts of Jodie. Not that I mind having her in my thoughts, but the distraction does tend to dull the free-fall effect a little.
I talked with one of my coworkers today, about the excitement bristling inside of me. It was quite cathartic actually, especially as she has been in a similar situation herself recently. She really has been very supportive to me, and having witnessed how I dealt with my last serious relationship breakdown, she's been somewhat of a tower of strength for me.
Regardless, my feelings for Jodie have grown so strong, so quickly that it would have been impossible for me to resist the force drawing me towards her.
Despite that though is that apprehension; that irrational fear that stirs in people universally, when they resolve to approach the person who is the object of their affections.
For me, that is one of the most frightening thing that I could fathom, so it is a testament to Jodie that I will, in fact, meet her, talk to her and express my feelings to her in a little over two days.
:-S
It's like being in a state of perpeptual freefall, with my stomach never really catching up with the rest of me.
Work has been busy with file system re-organization, web-site design and Drupal research for our online content management.
In many ways, this has been a good thing because it distracts my mind a little from thoughts of Jodie. Not that I mind having her in my thoughts, but the distraction does tend to dull the free-fall effect a little.
I talked with one of my coworkers today, about the excitement bristling inside of me. It was quite cathartic actually, especially as she has been in a similar situation herself recently. She really has been very supportive to me, and having witnessed how I dealt with my last serious relationship breakdown, she's been somewhat of a tower of strength for me.
Regardless, my feelings for Jodie have grown so strong, so quickly that it would have been impossible for me to resist the force drawing me towards her.
Despite that though is that apprehension; that irrational fear that stirs in people universally, when they resolve to approach the person who is the object of their affections.
For me, that is one of the most frightening thing that I could fathom, so it is a testament to Jodie that I will, in fact, meet her, talk to her and express my feelings to her in a little over two days.
:-S
# posted by The Puppeteer : 6:10 pm
